It is March. Monday. The first. New beginnings and plans. Another start to try not to fuck it up.
I weighed myself this morning and it is not good. I can't even type it, its so gross. I am fat and stupid and can't hack it.
Started purging as a last resort. 3 times last week. Purging scares me. Potassium, electrolytes... whatever. If I'm not 120lbs by April I will do something insane. I don't know.
Whatever! I hate this! I'm going to be 110 by May.
That's that. No discussion. Period.
Monday, March 1, 2010
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Purging freaks me out too...I still do it but I remain in a quivering state of terror before, during and after. Here's to new starts! Take care, x
ReplyDeleteme too. Oh god. I thought even though both types of ED are dangerous, Bulimia is so much scarier to me. But I don't know what else to do once its in my body. I just HAVE to get it out!
ReplyDeleteBe careful, Sunshine. We'll find a way out someday.
Love to you!